Lai wrote:
You are so afraid that something might possibly be awkward that in the end it always is even if it isn't.
Because I don't know how to deal with awkardness on my side or anyone else's and it really pisses me off a lot when it becomes that way because it's usually from some bullshit tiny social cliche that I wasn't aware of, I'm sick of running into that every time when I try to make progress with a girl, the seemingly smallest thing can fuck it up, like that girl that I never ended up doing anything with because I was trying to get the details for the date straightened out. Maybe not a good example of awkard, but a good example of something everyone but me knew not to do, especially apparent by other guys reactions when I told them about it.
Once it goes awkward at all ever, I'm completely done and written off by them. I'm tired of it happening, every prospect in high school, it eventually somehow got to the point where they wouldn't even say hi to me, and the one I asked out eventually got to the point over time somehow that she actually tried to avoid me. Half the times it happened, I still don't even know why it became that way. It could be something I did or even something I
didn't do like initiate a conversation. Which goes back to the awkwardness thing, I like the good moments so much that I don't want them to lose interest by making an awkward conversation the next time, and that itself ends up being the problem.
If you don't have the social ability, you don't have anything at all apparently.
On another note: I recently talked to one of my old teachers who's got Asperger's too and he said I just have to wait for the girl to choose me like he did, and she showed me a pic of his wife, HOLY FUCK he did GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD for a dude with a big ole beer belly like his. But he said it mostly happens after college and it's harder to happen in college. Probably gonna have to wait like forever then if that's the case.
