KEN-JENNINGS wrote:
why does your ex hate you?
I hope it's because you sexed her friend and beat up that one creeper dude.
she hates me because the very difficult breakup we went through manifested itself in that ugly stage of 'hatred/anger/bitterness' that everyone so often familiarly experiences, and so thus the air and atmosphere turned decidedly unfriendly. on the road to 'getting over her' i went through the full emotional/mental spectrum of upset, hurt, hate, anger, bitterness, spite, longing, missing her etc. the whole grim fandango. the atmosphere between us is chilly because, needless to say, i didnt exactly handle losing the 'love of my life' in the most responsible and respectable way, i.e. i got drunk and fucked off my face a lot on drugs and said a lot of hurtful, upset things that i didnt mean, to hide my emotional-hurt rawness. it's a youthful folly and a mistake that many a sensitively-unattatuned young man doth make. i love her more than anything and anyone ive ever known, but i just couldnt deal with that unexpected breakup and breakdown of relations. i didnt just lose a girlfriend when we parted ways, i lost a best-friend, a confidante and a soulmate. unashamed to admit to you, fellows of bf2s, despite the trolling and supercilious persona, that i was lost and abandoned. im barely 20 years old and just didnt know how to deal with losing my first 'true' companion when i was meant to spend the rest of my life with her. you older members may call it youthful mistakes and naivety, but of course it all seems VERY different when you're in the moment. now im living with her, she moves back in tomorrow, and frankly i feel like jeffrey dahmer awaiting the electric chair; im shitting myself. none of my cares and loving emotions have changed, but all i have to show for it now dearest bf2s is these lovelost and heartful posts on this forum. she wont ever want to know again, and thus i must move forward like a lost dilletante in a conservative and restrictive world. no one else will ever care or give a damn about her like i did, so fuck 'em. smoke weed everyday, hey-hey-heeee-ey.
