LT.Victim wrote:
I literally drove home from her house in a fit of rage last night.. My minds full of regrets, anger, sadness, and mixed up feelings, I don't know what to think anymore, or even what I should do...
You guys don't even know half the story behind all this, theres so much more that hasn't been said and won't be said, its like some fucking TV Drama that I'm living through..
She is soo awesome, and we have so much fun together.. I really do love this girl.. What the fuck do I have to do to prove myself to you? god dam.. You want me just as bad as I want you... When will this ever change, because this isn't fair to neither of us or your BF..
You tell me to be patient, and if its meant to be it will happen. Well life doesn't change all by itself, if you keep just ignoring this whole thing and don't do anything about it then it won't change...
You told me that you would see if you still felt the same about him as you use to, well do you? If you can't say "yes" to that question, then you truly don't, because a "I dunno" means that you don't... How much longer are you going to see then? The only reason I don't think you want to do anything about it is because you have "plans".. you know your Birthday Party, Grad and all that stuff... I understand you need time, and you know I'm willing to wait, but we can't just keep doing this.
The sad part about all this... a random bunch of people on the Internet know more about this whole situation then your own BF.. Maybe that's telling you something?
This is soo fucked up, everything good always ends up being bad.. Linds don't let this be like that Rascal Flatts/Cascada song don't let this be what could have been..
I was kinda waiting for this to happen, exact same thing that happened to me, when I was in the exact same situation. Still am really, n its over 2 years later
The thing about "seeing what happens" is bullshit. Its up to them to make their mind up, nothing will chamge if they jus wait for it to change.
She probly doesnt wanna break up with her BF cos she doesnt wanna risk not having anyone, even tho she'd have you. Either that, or she's not sure who she likes more, n doesnt wanna risk fucking things up with her current bf, if she realises she likes him more after she breaks up with him.
As for "can't keep doing this." you almost definitely will, no matter how hard you try to stop yourself from caring (which you might not even wanna do), there's something about her that no-one else can see, that will keep you comin back to try again. Even if you dont see her for a couple of months, meet new people, then come back thinking your over her, you wont be. (I know, its happened to me every time I've gone back home from uni n seen this girl)
Basically, love fucks with your head, n it will keep doing it. But try not to let it get you down.
