52 Days Marijuana Free. Making better choices.
1. Today was "Family Game Night." I helped run an event the union put on for kids to play a fake game show event at school and get prizes. The union ladies organized it and bought the stuff. But being a guy I can push the cart up the ramp and all of that.
We had a lot of food and the kids from the alternative high school came by and got free food too. At first we were hesitant about the alternative high school kids showing up but as the organizer mentioned "they are the only ones that said thank you" and "I know what it was like to be hungry."
2. I was kind of obsessed with the soldier's ex-wife since she lives in the neighborhood. We would run into each other and I was always hoping to see her again. I had no idea she was struggling so bad until she called me to take her to ShopRite. I brought her family groceries and then dropped off and picked her up from a free dance class she wanted to attend. She then came over and smoked a joint and relaxed at my place. I didn't smoke or pressure her into hooking up. I didn't do anything to make her feel degraded over $50 of groceries. I am most proud that I just got her home safe. She did something that shocked me though. She remembered my birthday. I couldn't believe she remembered the date.
3. I have to cancel the LDS Bible study with the other girl this Saturday. She has a boyfriend and the whole thing is just weird. I am going to go back to my original plan of participating in special needs little league.
I am not sure how to feel about the whole thing. It makes me sad seeing what these kids lives are like. I know me being there, helping, giving money etc. all help these kids. But since I am doing it for impure reasons I can't fully feel satisfied about the experience. I don't post this one to social media because that would feel icky.
4. When you are sober you notice the days are long. Someone needs to investigate that.
