well my gf just left my place to get her train home... probably not gonna see her for 3 weeks, way too busy over xmas with family occasions and university work. feels horrible we only met properly like 2 months ago and we've just been snuggled up ever since, constantly texting, chatting, going out together, hanging out... just generally sharing lives. we just kinda fit one another like a glove, personality-wise and tastes-wise from day one. constantly making one another laugh. plus she's probably one of the most beautiful girls at my university right now-- with no exaggeration. the sorta girl you'd scope across the dancefloor at the student union during fresher's week and then NOT forget about. almost couldn't believe my luck when we hooked up, and i'm a pretty confident jack when it comes to girls. it's really different when the power-play of a relationship is reversed... it sounds arrogant but it's really emotionally humbling and urging when you feel 'lucky' to be with a girl. i don't think i have taken one day of our experiences together for granted yet. every day i still wake up to her or spend time with her and tell her she's the most beautiful thing i have ever seen.
but yeah... now the xmas break. feels like a honey-moon cancelled abruptly half-way through now we're both going back home to old friend-groups, old exes, old turf... places we've been before. i've got trust and faith (you just have to, really) but there's still that little part at the back of my mind, the same part that makes me feel so damn lucky, that's hating the distance already. she's the sorta girl i just wanna burrow into the sheets with and map like a constellation for 3 months, learning everything about her. life, in my third and final year, just isn't allowing that.
SUCKSSSSSS. but hey there's a big bright side
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