She would yeah, she said to one of her friends in the earlier months of our relationship that she's so glad for me, because I'm understanding about David (the creeper), when she knows that if I had a female in the same position she would never cope. But I guess because she has emotional issues and needs support, that's okay... but to be honest this entire last week has absolutely hammered me, mentally, and I feel pretty damn beat. Now she's going home and is going to hang out with him again, whilst re-evaluating the relationship and deciding whether or not I/we are worthy, and she's being pretty despondent by the phone, too. It's probably because I'm calling already on the first night apart, but her total lack of empathy and understanding for my own position - having to endure and ride through all of this whilst being left alone in our house together, completely alone and asking tons of questions to myself - is a bitch to deal with.Mekstizzle wrote:
If you reverse the situation/roles I bet she'd go ballistic if it was you and another chick
Fuck this I'm glad I'm single
(not really)
I think I need to turn this 'Oh fuck, why me in this shitty, unfair and unjust situation?' pity and sorrow into a stronger 'Fuck it, I don't deserve this shit, sort yourself out and recognise what I do for you and quit beating me up'. I should just go get laid with someone else and stop fussing over something that she has entirely taken into her own hands to either cull or nurture.
Last edited by Uzique (2009-07-19 14:18:47)
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