Jay wrote:
uziq wrote:
same thing always with you. you worked hard and earned everything you have. you didn't join the military out of self-interest or take grants because they were merely convenient. it was all serving a higher, noble purpose. you were practically being heroic. oh and everyone else deserves their lot. you take no pity on anyone who doesn't improve themselves through self-reliance and initiative. lol.
I was raised to be a soldier. I grew up on war stories, I wore my father's and grandfather's medals on my jacket. I played army in the woods near my house, pretending to defend my hometown from a Soviet invasion. I wore camouflage for nearly every Halloween. I was that kid, probably more like war man or sh1fty than not. When I was in middle school I was bullied because even though i was bigger than nearly everyone, I didn't know how to fight and so I would refuse. I'd get called a pussy or a coward. It stuck with me. When I was in high school I played football, I wrestled and I played lacrosse so I could show how tough I really was. I played through broken bones and concussions. So, when I dropped out of college after 1.5 semesters it was naturally the next step in my quest to prove that I wasn't, in fact, a coward. I had other justifications, college money, learning a career, but the real reason wasn't rational, it was naked insecurity. The rest of it? I didn't know the first thing about politics when I left high school. I was a jock. Republicans were angry old men and Democrats were the good guys. I voted for Gore. Rational self-interest never involved itself in my decision to join the military, only in my backwards looking revisionism after the fact.
So there you go. I served my country, I defended my family, and I didn't run in combat. What have you done?
LOL OK, your delusions are becoming more and more grandiose.
Why did you really drop out of college and join the Army Jay?
If you'd been brave you could have simply walked into a bank and negotiated a loan to pay for college. What was scary about that?
You joined a rear echelon signals unit IIRC, not a frontline combat unit, this new explanation doesn't really fly. You didn't serve anyone or defend anything, the US military is used to recycle tax money and advance America's economic interests and you know it perfectly well.
Are you the same Jay Galt who disobeyed a direct order from an officer and ran away as soon as the siren went off? That's what you wrote in your memoir.
Are you the same Jay Galt who used personal contacts and dropped hints about his military career to get his first job, and then left as soon as better pay was offered elsewhere?
I think you're trying to re-rationalise your last re-rationalisation, which post-dates the one before, your ideology and recollection is plastic and moulded to suit whatever circumstance you're in, and remoulded to suit whatever circumstance you were in in the past.
The sooner you get to grips with your own psychology the better IMO, I mean this honestly.
In the meantime pissing on people who don't measure up to your own invented stellar history doesn't make for a good look.
Since you ask, what have I done?
I got through one of the hardest 'proper' engineering courses in the world and graduated age 20, looking back there was a huge difference between me at 18 and 25, at 25 it would have been a doddle, as a depressed teenager (without even a single kilo of cocaine to my name) it was pretty hard. Mine was the final year for which it was a three-year course, thereafter it was four years with an essentially unchanged syllabus. I didn't do it the modern way, 2-3 subjects per semester. I did 9-10 subjects a year with all the exams crammed into 10 days - invariably hay-fever time. What did you achieve age 20 Jay?
Age 21 I was shooting for my region, age 24 I was shooting for England, 25 I was on the British Olympic squad. Shooting is basically a nerve sport - lapses show up clearly. It isn't actually difficult, anyone can do it with minimal effort, not everyone will manage even minimal application or can hold their nerve under pressure.
You want a military background? My grandfather was evacuated from Dunkirk, was a Desert Rat, fought through Italy and finished the war a Lt-Colonel. My father accompanied the SAS on anti-terrorist raids and did tours triple the length of the military he was working with. After one post his house really was mortared, various colleagues were shot by the IRA, I had a childhood of checking the car for bombs. I came close to doing something stupid like joining the Paras after university, my father convinced me not to. I did join the TAVR to do something positive, it was so fucked up I was out after six months - having never even been properly inducted. (It was an Engineers regiment, you know the guys who go
ahead of the combat troops, shame it didn't work out)
That and working in four different industries, paying my parents living costs for 10 years and dealing with a ton of nasty shit to boot, I don't feel too bad, and think I measure up even to your imagined track record well enough.
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