zzz bit of a problem.
so i've known this girl for like 5 years, i've always had a thing for her and i think she had the same for me. problem is, she was almost always taken. at first we were really good friends and then the years passed by and we kind of fell apart. a couple weeks ago, i hadn't seen her for a year and a half and casually invited her over along with other friends (that she didn't know). she ended up coming over, we got pretty drunk and high. she casually dropped the "boyfriend" comment a couple times, so i knew she was dating someone. but the whole night she just kept dropping other hints, being touchy and seeking my attention and whatnot. anyway i bring her up to my bed, clothes come off, and it just kinda happens. it felt really natural as i've been meaning to be with her for a long time. in the morning we wake up, say goodbye, we should do this again, etc. so i think all is well.
anyway last night i tried to initiate conversation with her and just got shut out. "i really don't want to know that. i'm trying to get some sleep with my boyfriend right now." so i figure either a) he found out (pretty sure i left marks on her neck, not very smart really) or b) she feels guilty or some combination of the two.
feel like a scumbag but i've always liked her. i d k
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